There is so much uncertainty surrounding deployment. As we near our 6^th deployment, the unanswered questions are already starting to wear on me. What day is he leaving? What holidays, birthdays, weddings and other special events will he miss? How will I survive this deployment? How will he survive this deployment? Will we be able to communicate on a regular basis? Will he come home with PTSD?

I tend to be somewhat of a control freak. So not being able to control the situation is especially difficult for me to deal with. I try my best to put everything in God’s hands and not worry about the things I cannot control. I keep reminding myself to focus on living in the moment and spending quality time with my husband.

For now, I’ll continue to push these thoughts out of my head (I’m hoping writing this blog will help), and realize that I will deal with them when the time comes. After all, that is all I can control.